Wow just a name lifted my spirit and inspired me to create this blog
APHANTASTIC
It’s Aphantastic to put a name on something the very thing that drove
me to suicide. For the last eighteen
years, I have been writing black-
hole poetry, my writing has pulled
me from the ledge, as John Berryman
called ‘The blind-brow.’
All those years spent in default mode, telling doctors, nurses and psychiatric professionals who had no clue about
the blackness behind my eyes, unable
to conjure up images from my mind's eye.
Unable to cling to images of my own
sons, my childhood and my family.
It was as if I was a blank shell of a man.
At least now I’ve got a name, a reason
for my anxiety.
I have been trying to form from
a formless mind but I knew I knew
I was on to something, there was
a method to my madness. The poems
were feeding me hope,
even it was a dark hope.
I flicked through YouTube as I stay
away from adverts. I watched a guy
talking to a professor about how he couldn’t hold the images of his dead mother in his mind and thought he
was going mad and the professor
said he had a condition
called Aphantasia.
Wow, just a name lifted my spirit
and inspired me to create this
blog of hope.
CRYPTOCHROME
CHIMPANZEE POETRY
5G got into me
morphogenetic
chimpanzee poetry.
Neuroscience sees the right brain as monkey mind
The right brain is far from monkey man.
Let me start by saying, I am not a scientist
just a mere poet, gripped. I took a massive
stroke in 2005, my left brain was erased
so I live on the write side so how come.
I understand the divided brain. I have been
writing for years on my sense that Raymond -
Carver and Patrick Kavanagh are here in
the realm of possibility. Me becoming poet
was accidently on purpose, a signal of humanity.
Both these poets have been trans-
mitting waves of humanity. I believe
that D.N.A. is sent to strands of D.N.A.
via waves of cryptochrome like
microwave signals.
My life and my poems have been about seeking
Feeling not meaning, we have been searching
For metre rhyme and meaning but the Portuguese
Poet Fernando Pessoa said ‘it is not necessary just
to live but to feel’
Footnote :
I TOOK A MASSIVE STROKE THAT ALMOST KILLED ME THEY SAY MY LEFT BRAIN WAS ERASED SO I LIVE IN THE WRITE HEMISPHERE AND ITS FULL OF POETRY AND ART THERE IS AN ENTITY GOD IN HERE. I DON’T BLASPHEME INTENTIONALLY, I AM LEFT PARALYZED DOWN RIGHT SIDE UNABLE TO WALK MUMBLING TALK AS MY VOCAL CORDS ARE DAMAGED, LOST MY LONG-TERM MEMORY.
Cryptochromes (from the Greek κρυπτός χρώμα, "hidden colour") are a class of flavoproteins found in plants and animals that are sensitive to blue light. They are involved in the circadian rhythms and the sensing of magnetic fields in a number of species. The name cryptochrome was proposed as a portmanteau combining the chromatic nature of the photoreceptor, and the cryptogamic organisms on which many blue-light studies were carried out.[1][2]
The two genes Cry1 and Cry2 code the cryptochrome proteins CRY1 and CRY2.[3] In insects and plants, CRY1 regulates the circadian clock in a light-dependent fashion, whereas in mammals, CRY1 and CRY2 act as light-independent inhibitors of CLOCK-BMAL1 components of the circadian clock.[4] In plants, blue-light photoreception can be used to cue developmental signals.[5] Besides chlorophylls, cryptochromes are the only proteins known to form photoinduced radical pairs in vivo.[6]
Cryptochromes have been the focus of several current efforts in optogenetics. Employing transfection, initial studies on yeast have capitalized on the potential of Cry2 heterodimerization to control cellular processes, including gene expression, by light.
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