REARVIEW
What a way to start your day
With Lou Read looking out
For you, ‘I’ll be your mirror’.
Fly away on his dirty Blvd.
You don’t need a busload
Of faith to get by. I’ll keep
Your graveside clean Lou.
CURRENT-SEA WAVE OF POETRY
He gripped the rubber coolant band
And sipped from his well-stained coffee
cupThe wounds on his back/bottom were
Roaring red like a severe sunstroke but
this was below the skin he sat upright
behind his blacked-out curtains.
Allergic to the sun, his bedsores
began to calm with the coolant crème
put on by the caregivers who called
four times a day, he felt his wounds
were leathered.tethered he thought in
Art-music-poetry.
Like Icarus who flew to close to the sun
He flew to close Event horizon darkness
Within
dark the Tao- true pathway
So he thought but he wasn’t going to
shove his view down your throat.
Like the hide of pigskin, he wrote
In a collection called ‘KILL HOUSE’.
He lived for his image poe-artry as
He called it. Although his bedsores -
Were bedsore his filthy real poems
Gave him hope in a hopeless world.
Man-shell.
A massive stroke left him this way
Paralyzed- flat on my back like a gang
of four Paralyzed-damaged goods at
At least I’m not a silly trivial pop song
He thought I would hate that.
I-car-us poetry made him whole
Black-hole.
ri
ART
My pomes don’t have an agenda
I’m the only person in the world
You can trust.
My mind is blank of
Love and hate
Right-wrong
Good and evil.
Words are like
Petal flower
Creating blooms
Without emotion.
Drink, piss
Eat, shit.
Use energy
Sleep.
Art comes from in-
AUGUST1994
A SONG
The gardener awoke after years of
depression
And looked to the clear blue sky above him.
Slipped into his cold black wellington
boots
With the butt of his spade he dug up the
roots.
The nettle that stings he tore from the
ground
The thistle that thorns he dragged from the
mound.
My god, what a nightmare where have I been
Pain shot through his heart recalling the
hatred.
He threw it to compost, saying the garden
is sacred
His scythe he took up and cut through the
grass like
A high wind tearing flags from half-mast,
as he
Reached near the soil, the grass was
lush
He sat down remembering his mother’s touch.
DEATH IS MY LIFE BEFORE APHANTASIA
I have been living this morbid hell for ten
years now
Trying to find some meaning in this dark
matter.
I can’t comprehend why I am still here, why
didn’t
They just let me die, you have to have
something
To give something to life and these words
are all I’ve got
And they are meaningless, I’ve writ them
over and over
And over again. Looking at them from every angle but
I still come up with the same conclusion,
why.
Can you imagine living without dreams or memory?
The world has nothing to do with you, you
are lost
In the void of a moment, the world rotates
out there.
There is no God, ghosts or angels,
manifestations by
Imagination
there’s no Jesus fairytale or Mickey mouse
Or Santa's imagination is created from dreams.
There’s only you lost within the four walls
of a dis-
Abled bungalow. The fabric of life, you're general-
Relativity that bends and curves your space-time.
I live in this real reality, the first time
I did this
It was exciting to be alive forming words
to form
In a formless mind and truly amazing that I
woke
From death but these words are written
years on.
Like living in a suicidal moment, you can’t
commit it
Because it’s all you have and you have no
right to
Kill nature’s time because it’s locked into
you.
It gets so sad and lonely in this world,
the world
Outside my time doesn’t seem to understand
It’s like life without the crunchy bits of
life like
Love, lust, desire, etc., the uncontrollable
urges.
Life without an adrenaline rush, I can’t
really explain
This is because it is me. I had spunk in abundance
Before the stroke that stole my memory.
Not the substance of spunk but the
attitude, and emotion.
I’m locked in here without memory until the
day I die
I live in a negative capability, so if you
can think like me
From the only way around. Suicide is life, darkness with-
In the darkness that we I will accept someday.
Seems you can’t live without a little bit
of bullshit
I’ll get there one day or time will kill
me.